New road

So I am finally doing it. I am going back to school. I have decided I want to be a physical therapist.
I was having some physical therapy done and realized how much I would love to do it. I will start by getting my PTA degree and then work as a PTA until I get my PT degree.
Filling out apps and forms and such, it is a little daunting. But I so want to do this. I want a better life for myself.
I feel led to this. I hope that makes sense.

On other news: I have been diagnosed with PCOS. Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. A lot of people freak when I tell them this, thinking that cysts are synonomous with cancer of the ovaries. This is a syndrome. I am not dying. I have insulin resistance which cause hormone changes, which causes cysts on my ovaries instead of ovulating. TMI? Too bad. I could tell you about the growing of hair in some places and the loosing of hair in other places, acne and a plethera of other things but I am sure you don't want to hear that too. The doc has put me on mentformin which is wonderful, that is a lie. I am nauseous constantly. Doc says things will level out soon. I am okay with a little nausea as long as I can be relatively normal.

We finished the Artist's Way. I planning on going through it again. I was busy moving at the time to get the full affect. I do recommend it. It opens a lot of doors that one would think were closed forever.

Our house is great! I love it. Room to move and dance and love! It is the gate for our new life. And now we are back full circle.
I have a lot of hope right now.

A new home

"So we have officially moved. The animals are here now and they seem to be enjoying it. Thing 1 and Thing 2 (my dogs) love the front yard. We have to defoliate the back yard. I saw we I mean Kevin and any volunteers because I am very allregic to poison ivy, which is back there.
Of course things are still in boxes. But it is home, really home.
Sometimes late at night, it is too still and quiet. The back room is not overly friendly, but we can fix that. The animals don't even like it back there. Nothing to worry about though.
I love having our own washer and dryer. Don't have to wait on someone else's loads.
I have my own room, to dance, sew and create in! How great is that?!?!? I haven't had that in a long time. I will post pictures soon.
It is our home. And although there will be adjustment time I love it!"

Love

I have noticed a lot of things lately. A lot of things. It is like my brain is over full. And I love it. I am working and finishing a lot of my projects.
The belly dance class is going well. So I am going to continue to teach on Tuesdays at 6. Teaching has really opened my eyes to a lot of things. I am learning as I teach. Another thing I love!
We are moving in 3 weeks. It has been so long. And I have been very patient. I look forward to all the freedom we will have and the chance to make our own home. Yet another thing I love!
The Artist's Way....holy cow Batman! It is opening my eyes, my heart, my brain. It makes me realize what I can truly accomplish.
My body is not so happy lately. I am active and it is resisting. I will not give up though. I refuse to be like my family before me. I will not give in to the pain. I will win this.
I love my husband for supporting me through all of this and helping to keep my spirits up when I feel completely overwhelmed.
The last thing I am starting to love. Notice I said starting is myself. I deserve a new home, a healthier body, to expand my artistic side. I love me. Quirky, talky, funny, pretty, sexy, curvy, smart me.
How about that!?!?

Xrays

So I got the results back on my xrays. I do have the early stages of arthitis in my hips, pelvis and lower lumbar.
My mother went on and on about heredity. And how her grandmother was inmobile by the age of 55 and her father was on crutches because of the arthritis in his back.
Well I say screw heredity. I am not my mother and I will not go down without a fight. I think the xrays lied. I don't have arthritis. I refuse.
So I am taking the steps to take better care of myself. Walking everyday, even if it is for 10 mintues. I am moving. Stretches and dancing. Glucosamine and MSM. I will not loose this battle.
So there :P

Quantify

I am working my way through the Artist's Way with a few lovely, intelligent ladies. We meet once a week to see how we are doing, a support group of sorts.
I was thinking about our last meeting and I realized that we quantified a lot of what we said to each other. We would say things like I know this is going to sound silly or funny or mushy or whatever. It was like we were making excuses for our words. Why? Have we kept our mouths shut for a long time that we have to excuse our thoughts before they are spoken? Our dreams have been dormant for so long that to speak of them out loud seems almost like blasphemy. Our souls have been crushed since we can remember so we hide what matters to us.
Our group isn't the only ones that do it. I noticed my co-workers were doing it also, today.
So I am trying to figure out why. Are we afraid we are being offensive? It doesn't stop us from yelling random obscenities at the offending driver that cut us off. Why can't we tell our friends how we feel, without excuse or apology?
Just a thought.

Long time

I know it has been a long time since I have written here. I didn't really want to for whatever reason.
I started the Artist's Way with a group of great ladies. We all bring something different to the table and it makes the experience of it all even better!
I am teaching belly dance and I love it! I want to give the people who are taking my class the best time ever! I know I might sound a little too excited but I can't help it.
I have other good news. I don't have arthitis or fibromyalgia. I have been having a lot of pain lately and it was worrying me. So I went to the doctor. And although I am having pain it has nothing to do with my family history and everything to do with being overweight and out of shape. So basically I have the fatness. Something I can deal with.
So I am very motivated in so many ways. I will write more soon. Must go to sleep so I can get up and exercise in the morning.

Starting

Okay Starting June 9, I will be teaching a 6 week class focusing on arm and hand movements.
Here is the info: Arms in Dance taught by Ananya
Date: June 9 for 6 weeks
Time: 6 to 7 p.m.
In this class, we will learn abotu the different types of hand/arm movements and postitions, for ballet to flamenco and how you can incorporate them in your dance. We will learn strenghtening exercises and perform drills.
Please bring a towel for stretches.

It is $10 per drop in class or $55 for the entire 6 week course. I also can offer private sessions.