Finished tasks

I call them finished tasks, but none of them are tasks. My friends Lu and Jason got married 10 days ago. Here they are to the left.

I finished my dress. I think I look pretty good in it. The pattern is Vogue 2810. Pretty easy to use actually. This is me and my loving hubby, Kevin. Don't we look twitterpated?

I made another Oddling. This time I got paid for it. Here he is. Oddlings are little stuffed animals I made for some of my friends this past Christmas because I didn't have a whole lot of money. They were a big hit. I just yes scrap cloth I have left over from various projects. I have bunches of buttons and embroidery thread. This one I call Toothulu. It kinda looks like a tooth combined with Cthulu. I am making my husband a green velvet Cthulu. I should have it finished soon. I will post pics when I do.

So I am completing things. Now to make the time to practice dancing more. I never seem to make that time for me. I need to though. For my sanity.

End of July beginning of August, we will have a home of our own. Come hell or high water. It will be tough, but we are going to do it. I am so excited for it!

Dance video

Okay I finally posted my Visioncon video on Youtube. It is kind of grainy. Here it is. I know I need to tweak it. I will have it more polished by the Princess Farhana workshop in Buffalo.

Children of all ages

I love the circus. Always have. I wanted to be the girl on the flying trapeze. I wanted to run away and join the circus. (I also cheered every time my mom told me she was going to sell me the gypsies, but that is another story.) I love watching anything aerial at the circus.
So what got me on this subject. I found a new online magazine. Here is the link: http://www.bigtopmagazine.com/

Check it out! I love it!

Metal

On my brother's entertaiment center sits a piece of rusted metal. Most wouldn't notice it, others may even try to throw it away, but to my brother it means so much more. In that piece of wadded up metal tells a story of how he and several other soldiers almost lost their lives due to an IED on a road in Iraq. I can't imagine what that must have been like that, the noise, the smoke, the chaos. I know he helped with a hum-v, the casualty in the vehicle did not make it, he helped remove the body. It affected him on many levels, especially since this soldier, shared the same rank, position in the vehicle. even last names. Again I can't imagine.
My brother is a third generation soldier. My father is a Vietnam veteran, and my grandfather is a Korean veteran. My father never wanted the Army life for his children. He never wanted us to go through what he did.
But my brother went to Ground Zero after September 11th and felt compelled to join the Army, just as my father felt compelled to do so many years ago. They both thought they were doing the right thing, not knowing or not caring what it might do to them, what they were sacrificing or how long their sacrifice would last.
My father still has nightmares. My brother's have just begun. They did what they thought what was right. Their souls are now shattered because of the things they had to do. They are the walking wounded, ghosts flying about, the boogey man around the next corner. All we can do is be there and try to understand. All we can do is be there and try to understand.
Think about that the next time someone tells you that war is the right thing to do. Think about the piece of folded up blasted rusted metal that sits on my brother's entertainment center.

Snuggie

I just saw the commercial for Snuggie. Now snuggies to me have something to do with the junior high prank the wedgie which involves underwear being pulled into crevices until pain occurs.
But this Snuggie is a blanket with sleeves. It looks like a choir robe to me. And in varying colors, light blue, navy blue and red.
I think that the Snuggie is actually cult wear for the future. Gone is the track suit and velcro shoes. Newbies would wear the light blue and then graduate from there. The only question is are you ready for the red robe?
Watch the commercial and tell me what you think. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2xZp-GLMMJ0

Scattered

I know things on my blog are scattered. That is my mind set right now. There is so much going on right now.
Two weddings, yes I said two. There certain things that one needs to do. Besides the relief in the second bride's face was worth it, at least for now. I have to make my dress for the first wedding. I have everything cut out, I just need to put it together. Haha I sew and curses fly out of my mouth. I should record it some time so you can see. The second wedding needs a lot of help in the planning stage. I am willing to help her. I am a sucker at times. It makes things difficult, but I love to see others happy, even if it means sacrificing myself. I know, stupid girl you come first. Years of training take some undoing.
I really want to loose weight. I need to loose weight. My body suffers everyday because of the extra weight is hauls around, my breathing labors because of it. The pain I experience in every moment of the day is due at least partially to my weight. And a vey broken part of me must think I deserve it because I keep eating and eating, not exercising. I did start taking Alli and that seems to be doing something. So I have at least taken the first step.
My job is in a state of constant flux. I work for a chemical company that also sells fiberglass products. Our profits have been falling. Whose aren't? They just let one of my coworkers go on Monday. I got serious flash backs. I have worked for 2 other companies that went out of business. I watched people go and then before I knew the doors were closed. Not sure what I will do if that happens. I guess I will burn that bridge when I come to it.
We got a new car. 2003 red impala. She is pretty. I love her. At the end of July, we are moving to a home of our, something we have never had. There has always been roomates or family. I don't want to loose this opportunity.
Then there is my dancing. Not last on my list, but it is. Only because the other things keep jumping in front of it. When I dance, I love it. Even if I am just chair dancing. I feel graceful and beautiful. Well not all the time, sometimes I feel goofy and silly, but I mean to feel that way.
And somehow through all these things I must peace. Not sure how to go about it. I know it come from within but my in is too scattered. Silly viscious circle.

Grocery shopping

Today is my mother's birthday. I decided to go get her some flowers, she loves flowers and as I was shopping at the grocery store I realized how many stories are there. I got coffee, can't help but get it. And a young man, with down syndrome, tells his mother that he wants to order coffee for Sissy. With guidance from his mother, he orders a skinny vanilla latte, pays for it and carefully gets the change back. The baristas were so patient and kind, two things I don't always expect to see in people these days. He was so proud to do something on his own and beaming couldn't begin to describe what he was doing.
Then there was this older couple, both in long dark coats, looked like they had come from church. She had a cane. They walked slowly, deliberately. I realized that under the woman's hat there wasn't a lot of hair. Cancer and it's treatment had cut it for her. But she wasn't a victim, she was a survivor. Her stance, her walk strong able to defeat anything.

Those were jusst two of the stories I saw. There are so many more.

On another note, we went to see a house today. It is small but it will work for the two of us, so much potential. We will make it work. We will be moving at the end of July, beginning of August. I am so excited.