So many things....

So my dad is doing great. He is home already. He kind of looks like Frankenstein but he is okay with that. He likes the alternative look. There seems to be a peace on the house. The chaos for now has subsided.
I started taking the Ambien despite my fears. I don't want to sleep walk, eat or whatever else. I haven't had those problems though and having a full night sleep is definitely worth it. I feel so much better already. More energy and less depression. We shall see how things go.

I have a workshop this weekend. Princess Farhana. I so wanted to take the burlesque class, but the funds are not there. But I will be there all day Saturday and it will be awesome! I am so excited.
I am performing at a friend's birthday party and I am a little nervous. Club settings make me that way. I am not a sknniy minnie by any stretch of the imagination but I can dance. I just don't want to get heckled. Well if that happens I will have enough friends in the audience that will kick their arses.
Other things that are happening. I am an ordained minister now. I can perform weddings and the like.
And I have a party gig. It is a bachelorette party. They want a demo and then a class. I think it will be a blast!
Back to work I go.

Singing

Today in the car, Kevin started singing. I remembered when we were first together and he would hold me and sing to me, my ear to his chest. It felt like home and safe. It always has. He would sing to me in the shower, while we were in cuddling, in the car. He still does. His voice soothes me.
Some people don't understand why I am with him. His bravado and tough, mean mask keeps people at arms reach. Some would call him an asshole and he can be don't get me wrong. But believe me when I say he is really a gentle soul. He loves animals and even some people. He makes me laugh all the time. Bottom line is I love him with all of me. I am happy with him.

We measured the house yesterday. I took some pictures too. It will help when shopping for furniture etc. I found an awesome deal on some curtains. I spent $4.25 and got 12 yards of white sheer, 2 camel colored sheer panels, 2 tab top white curtains and a window scarf that is yellow gold with spiral embroidery. Not too bad at all.

Tuesday is my dad's operation. Basically they are opening his head and taking out the growth that is behind his eye. It will be an 8 hour surgery. Worst case scenario is that he could loose his eyesight in that eye. But that is not going to happen. I have deemed it so.

I will keep you up to date.

Coming together

So I just want to say that I am glad things in parts of my life are coming together. I feel like I can finally settle things and let other things go. It feels good.

I will be performing in a few weeks at the Princess Farhana workshop and then I will performing at a friends birthday party. I am looking forward to both actually.

I am very thankful for my life despite the shoulder thing and the family issues. These things I will over come!

Pitbull

No my pitbull does not wear lipstick. She would eat it though. I have to register her every year, so I don't loose her to the city. I think it is silly. But some people who thought it would be cool to make their dogs vicious have ruined it for the rest of us. So this is my legal pitbull and the babies she likes to sleep with.

Pardon my sleepy husband. I am sure he would be thrilled I posted this.

Old time injuries

So due to some old time injuries. I would say they were football injuries but that would be a lie. I get a cortizone shot in my shoulder on Tuesday. For those of you who know me this a long time coming, I have been putting off this because I feel that at 36 I am too young for the shot.
Now for the better news, if the shot does not work then I get to explore the option of surgery. Which I cannot get done until next year, because I don't have any time to do that this year.
I really think the shot will help my shoulder.
It is hard right now not to do arm work while I dance. But I have to baby that shoulder. I guess this is an opportunity to work on the areas I have problems with.