New road

So I am finally doing it. I am going back to school. I have decided I want to be a physical therapist.
I was having some physical therapy done and realized how much I would love to do it. I will start by getting my PTA degree and then work as a PTA until I get my PT degree.
Filling out apps and forms and such, it is a little daunting. But I so want to do this. I want a better life for myself.
I feel led to this. I hope that makes sense.

On other news: I have been diagnosed with PCOS. Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. A lot of people freak when I tell them this, thinking that cysts are synonomous with cancer of the ovaries. This is a syndrome. I am not dying. I have insulin resistance which cause hormone changes, which causes cysts on my ovaries instead of ovulating. TMI? Too bad. I could tell you about the growing of hair in some places and the loosing of hair in other places, acne and a plethera of other things but I am sure you don't want to hear that too. The doc has put me on mentformin which is wonderful, that is a lie. I am nauseous constantly. Doc says things will level out soon. I am okay with a little nausea as long as I can be relatively normal.

We finished the Artist's Way. I planning on going through it again. I was busy moving at the time to get the full affect. I do recommend it. It opens a lot of doors that one would think were closed forever.

Our house is great! I love it. Room to move and dance and love! It is the gate for our new life. And now we are back full circle.
I have a lot of hope right now.

Xrays

So I got the results back on my xrays. I do have the early stages of arthitis in my hips, pelvis and lower lumbar.
My mother went on and on about heredity. And how her grandmother was inmobile by the age of 55 and her father was on crutches because of the arthritis in his back.
Well I say screw heredity. I am not my mother and I will not go down without a fight. I think the xrays lied. I don't have arthritis. I refuse.
So I am taking the steps to take better care of myself. Walking everyday, even if it is for 10 mintues. I am moving. Stretches and dancing. Glucosamine and MSM. I will not loose this battle.
So there :P

Scattered

I know things on my blog are scattered. That is my mind set right now. There is so much going on right now.
Two weddings, yes I said two. There certain things that one needs to do. Besides the relief in the second bride's face was worth it, at least for now. I have to make my dress for the first wedding. I have everything cut out, I just need to put it together. Haha I sew and curses fly out of my mouth. I should record it some time so you can see. The second wedding needs a lot of help in the planning stage. I am willing to help her. I am a sucker at times. It makes things difficult, but I love to see others happy, even if it means sacrificing myself. I know, stupid girl you come first. Years of training take some undoing.
I really want to loose weight. I need to loose weight. My body suffers everyday because of the extra weight is hauls around, my breathing labors because of it. The pain I experience in every moment of the day is due at least partially to my weight. And a vey broken part of me must think I deserve it because I keep eating and eating, not exercising. I did start taking Alli and that seems to be doing something. So I have at least taken the first step.
My job is in a state of constant flux. I work for a chemical company that also sells fiberglass products. Our profits have been falling. Whose aren't? They just let one of my coworkers go on Monday. I got serious flash backs. I have worked for 2 other companies that went out of business. I watched people go and then before I knew the doors were closed. Not sure what I will do if that happens. I guess I will burn that bridge when I come to it.
We got a new car. 2003 red impala. She is pretty. I love her. At the end of July, we are moving to a home of our, something we have never had. There has always been roomates or family. I don't want to loose this opportunity.
Then there is my dancing. Not last on my list, but it is. Only because the other things keep jumping in front of it. When I dance, I love it. Even if I am just chair dancing. I feel graceful and beautiful. Well not all the time, sometimes I feel goofy and silly, but I mean to feel that way.
And somehow through all these things I must peace. Not sure how to go about it. I know it come from within but my in is too scattered. Silly viscious circle.

Shakespeare Sister

So Kevin and I went fleamarketing on Sunday. I was so excited to see a CD by Shakespeare Sister. I was even more excited to see that it had my favorite song on there. It's called Stay.
Check it out. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5pC3VJA_CB8
I got a really good Dvd this weekend also called Underbelly, it follows Princess Farhana around for a year. It has very good interviews and dance sequences. If you are into belly dance you should check that out too. http://www.princessfarhana.com/